Disability

I haven't been crocheting much because 1)  my hands have been hurting and 2)  I have been having trouble with coordinating my hands.  If you read my first post you probably wouldn't know it but I am severely disabled. I have mobility issues (supposed to be in a wheelchair), live in a group home for disabled adults, have a traumatic brain injury and heart problems.  I don't know how much life I have left and I try to enjoy each day.

I tried doing some exercises to help with hand pain but my hands have just been hurting!  They feel, well, ouch, and even typing this is hard (maybe I need to get a voice recognition typing thing).  I am going to try crocheting again tomorrow and am going to do some hand exercises tonight and tomorrow morning to help with the pain.  I've done a little bit more on my Granny square future blanket but not much because my hands have been hurting.

Speaking of disability, I admire severely disabled people like myself, up in Washington, advocating for disabled rights.  Disabled people speak frequently of "inspiration porn" and how they are praised for just being disabled and living (such as, wow!  she has a job and she is disabled!  how inspiring!)  I hate inspiration porn.  I am just a severely disabled person trying to live her life like everyone else.  I think it is okay, though, from one severely disabled person to the next to admire what one chooses to do with his or her life.  Being an advocate is a noble cause and one that takes bravery.  I'm not sure I am cut out for it in Washington D.C. but maybe I could do it online.  I have a lot of cognitive problems that prevent me from speaking well and being social with people but I do okay online and with typing (when my hands aren't hurting!)

Crocheting with hurting hands is hard.  I may have to rethink my dream of doing crochet for a living.  I'm going to try, though, and just take it one step at a time.  I think, though, that I am going to write more about disability because I find it is a good way to advocate and I admire other disabled people who advocate for themselves online and off and write about it online.  Many of these people have college degrees and are quite intelligent.  I would like to one day earn a college degree....I was thinking a BFA (Bachelor of Fine Arts) in Fiber Art from the Savannah College of Art and Design or the Maryland Institute College of Art would be cool.  But, I don't know if that will ever happen because I have trouble both with change and with doing the same thing over and over again because of my traumatic brain injuries.